解剖? 尸体? 呕吐? 黑夜?

前几天，又发了个模模糊糊的梦
梦里隐隐约约出现了一些我在现实中不可能接触到的东西
只记得,
在一个黑夜里，我与另一个人(2个人)被安排到去实习解剖尸体
解剖室处在一个大厦的高楼里，窗口没有玻璃，记得那夜的风很大很阴冷
解剖室里的光线很阴暗，那时就3个活人,1具人的尸体与一具猫的尸体.
心跳很快，很紧张，很怕...因为不敢面对尸体，所以就被指示在那猫身上动刀

正当教授要下第一刀示范给我看，那只猫竟然吐了一堆青色半固液体装的不知名呕吐物
终于,我忍不住跑到一旁反胃，霎那间...觉得超级恶心,没办法面对接下来所发生的事物
于是,教授允许我不必下手，只需要在一旁观看另一个学生动刀~
毋庸置疑，勇敢的他被安排与那具人的尸体'沟通'沟通'咯

尸体的肚子被剖开两半,印象中我站得蛮远的但还是看的一清二楚
比起那只猫,尸体反而让我感觉良好，没出现恶心的感觉
那具尸体是个男尸，死因不清楚但一直出现在脑海里的是盲肠
他还蛮年轻的,难道死因是因为盲肠没及时就医导致细菌感染而死亡??
最后的最后，只记得在尸体上看到一团团白白的大小肠，还因为第一次看到'真正'的肠感到兴奋？

故事就这样结束了，实在是好奇为什么会有如此戏剧化的梦...虽然我的梦大多数属奇怪无厘头啦
但还是好奇啦，因为最近看的电视剧都没有出现如此的剧情，生活上更不用说啦~
唯一一个可以被解释的原始是因为看了些医生写的部落格，描述着他们身为实习/医生所接触到的人事物与感触.
Anyway, 是一个特别的梦让我又增长了无限的联想力 =P

咔密九空格

3天2夜的生活营终于结束了~
第3次参加年少情的生活营.
老实说这一次的并没有上一次的好玩，所有方面都稍微差了点
惟有食物，地点有改进以外其他的都感到失望啊~

第一次参加年少情还记得是中四，在组内还是最小的，如今已20岁
在组内还真的算老了...
今年的组员都很不错，大家很团结，很活跃，很放开
只不过，年纪方面是小了点
我善于跟年纪大的沟通，而小的就有点闷了~
但真的很矛盾，组里面最小的2位营员竟然还蛮喜欢找我谈天的，而且都是些有建设性的topic哦~
而其他的就还好呗

这一次的生活营我竟然上台在500人面前present耶，很怕很紧张哦~
但，是个不错的突破!!

在生活营里，不得不否认可以见识到不一样的人~
所谓一种米养百种人.
有的讨人喜欢，有的避之不及
而要做到让所有人接受很难吧...
这一次，我与组长的理念有出入
在我的认知里，他没有尽个做组长的责任...
而这一些，当我静下来思考是，警惕也提醒着我
当身为领导人是不可犯下的一些错误!!

同样的每当大家要离别时，就必定会留下所有人的fb，加他为朋友
而我又是例外的那个，给email，等人来add.
我认为有心要成为朋友的就会有所行动，所以我就等有心人来add
我不是吊起来卖而是想要看到真正的友情.

回来后大家都描述着自己在营里3天2夜的心情，
发现到有个组员竟然形容我有点man,而且很保护自己.
我看到他写我很保护自己，我笑了...
我不知道他说的是哪一方面，但缺乏安全感的我不得不否认
但是我要申冤啊...在生活营内我并没有感到被威胁所以感觉还好
或许是说玩游戏方面吧....哈哈，其实是有原因的
我不是不玩而是他奶奶的我来耶，但我没讲出来所以大家误会了
而且我是慢热的人所以有点静啦...其实跟我很熟料的话，我是很疯的咯
只不过你们没机会看到料!!

终结来说这次的生活营还是很不错的，明年想参加麻玻的尝试下不一样的年少情
享受年轻的时光!!

第3次

怎么了？为什么又再次发生在我身上？到底这次又是为什么？
警钟响了？警惕着我，是时候醒了？
不可再乱来了，真的不是开玩笑啊~

丢脸啊！！！
但已发生了，没办法...想着如何克服面对大家吧
心态很重要吧...还是心理那关最难
或许大家没有看笑话的心态，但还是介意
想想，是大人了...应该道谢的

把心态转向好的一面，调整一切...礼貌重要过面子 !!!


p/s: 在看篇这文章的你或许不知道我在写些什么，因为我就是不想让任何人知道，这是一个不能说的秘密=)

《最初的回忆》

当熟悉变成了距离
未来被定格在原地
过去任性逃避
回忆 背弃

拼凑的画面像空气
思绪洒落零乱剧情
努力瓦解每段回忆
寻找 你的呼吸

删去全世界依然无法忘记
虽想你 谁是你

时间流逝在宇宙也不畏惧
虽唯一 只靠心感应

删去全世界依然还要重新
邂逅 爱上你
睁开眼是你
最初的回忆

公平竞争？ 玩嘢!!!

深为一个德高望重的老师就应该一视同仁的对待学生.
可是您的行为让大家都很失望也很生气
所有事情都不应该是这样的，你竟然可以为了面子用了如此烂的理由来淘汰一个team

原来我们的努力都是白忙的，事情的结果根本早已决定
我们根本不能改变什么
偏心？我不认为....你的面子大过一切
你为的是不让我们丢你的脸，唉~

事出必有因，无风不起浪
大家对你的偏见原来是有原因的，今天我领受到了
感觉好像被耍咯，耍了套猴子戏给你娱乐自己，笑一笑没烦恼

不是我们不服输，而是结果让人大跌眼镜
如果你选了个我们服气的team或许我们能接受的
但他们的plan真的是十分嘛嘛底咯~

算了，经过这次的经验让我深深的了解你更多
姜还是老的辣，真的是奸啊~

感想： 做人真的是要带眼识人，不然被耍了都不知道，做所有事情都要保留再保留

刺猬宝贝

一首让人听了很有放松的感觉，慢慢的节奏...很喜欢 =D

行医

这两天利用休息的时间看了一套新加玻剧[行医]
剧情是关于中西医合璧之类的，满新鲜的~
重点是有感动到我加上插曲居然是hebe的你还是要幸福
很Match到剧情真的很感动...赚了我几滴泪
很少有可以感动到我如此深刻的剧情啦 T^T

如果一天你得知你的生命进入倒数的阶段
你会如何做出决定接受治疗；
你如何调整你心里的难受；
你会如何对待你的家人；
你会如何面对你深爱的人；

如果正当你很需要一个人在你身边陪着你度过难关时
他失忆了，是好事吗...
虽然剧情少不了有点老套，但仍然很感人

人往往在失去后才难过，后悔，自责；
其实珍惜眼前人才是我们每个人都该有的态度，只可惜没几个人能做到，包括我...

1920 Minutes

经过1920分钟的奋斗，努力，绞尽脑汁终于都累垮了~
第一次也是最后一次，虽然挨得住可也太伤身了 >_<

这几天都感到很压力，所有东西都是在赶...
虽然已经提前开始了，但还是逃不过需要在最后一分钟的冲刺

虽然谈不上用脑过度，但一直不断想idea也很吃脑力
特别容易累，好累.

黑眼圈深到被自己吓到，驾车差点睡着，太可怕了~

当以为一切都值得时，却出乎意料的大掉眼镜
虽然落选，但连我们认为应该实质名归中选的组都没被选上，真的很怀疑老师的是如何评分的...
难道真的是偏心 ？？

也不想太多了，没被选上也算是好事吧...
大家都累得只想放松，好好的休息。

加油，剩下最后一个了....深呼吸，继续迈步前进 =D

Lam 歌一首

这首歌lam到我...
很有feel哦~
甜甜的~
如果我有爱人的话，我要深深的看着他唱出这首表达我心声的歌 ，哇....几罗曼蒂克喔=D
只可惜爱人不知在何处 xD

发福

能吃是福，是好事 ；
吃太多发福，很不好意思,
美食当前难控制，
停不下来一直吃。
懊恼懊恼真懊恼~
往横发展面积阔，
穿起衣服撑大大，
教我如何该怎办，该怎办~ >_<

四分五裂

一度的以为，早已四分五裂
曾经的我们已分配的到记忆的储存格里
再见吧，过去...
接受吧，现实...

普.通.朋.友.

First day of New Sem !!

Today is the first day of my sem 3.
My class was at 9am in the morning, but do you know how brilliant am i ???
I woke up at 8.44am, and after i think for 3 times, i decided to skip today class !!!
hahaha, luckily today i only had one class, so i continue my sleep until 12pm++
and guess what, i dreamed again.
As usual, a very weird dream like only will happen in movie or drama.
Is quite ridiculous, but i'm wondering why i will had this type of dream.
If shot it into a movie, it will definitely be the fantastic movie, muahahaha
The most worst thing is i didn't felt any guilty, lol

tsk....tsk....tsk....tsk......tsk....tsk....[learn from huat]

Ipoh - Cameron

This sem break, we went to Ipoh and Cameron for 3D2N.
Is a wonderful trip, enjoys every single moment with my lovely classmate.
haha, in this trip we save a lot money because all of stay at friend's home for free.
at Ipoh, we went to kellie castle and a gua, but only this 2 places edi took us 5 hour, why ?
guess what, shooting ofcoz xD
wah....the weather was super hot but we under the sun for few hour and eventually everyone almost get sunburn.

The next day, went to cameron !! All of us wear white, and the view was nice.
Play and play and play around. Have fun, we visited the place that visitor are not allowed to enter, free for entrance, get free tomatoes, go flower, vegetable and cactus farm.
Luckily, there are not heavy raining in the afternoon, so we enjoys our trip.
I like shower at cameron because i can play around with the haze which breath out from my mouth xD
First time saw the water heater is using gas to warm up the water, special...!!
Unfortunately, i miss some interesting places just because of raining early in the morning, and cant experience the farm's life, so maybe next time plan again and go there.
Got that kind of thinking which want to stay at cameron for 1 week ><

Ipoh- Cameron, mission completed.
so what's next ?
to be continued...

End of Semester 2 + Farting

From today onward, i'm deciding to write my blog in english.
The purpose is trying to improve my own english.
Although my english is very poor and sucks, but i still want to try very very hard to write, hopefully all of you can understand and don't laugh at my broken english har =(

Very happy for today because finally I finished all the exam paper and I ended up for my semester 2. Sigh, for the exam, i can't expect too much on it, just hopefully i can get a pass, but of course the higher i can get, happiness will be more xD

Had a serious trip planning for the sem break after the examination. I'm so excited for our coming class trip, hurray...i believed it will be very fun due to our craziness, haha...

Went to had a movie at one U, The Number 4. Overall is not bad but the story is damn sien. Alien come to Earth, bla bla bla....sien la, for this type of story, the protagonist always alive no matter what happen to them. Cheh, but the effect for the movie is very good, en en !!

Yesterday, 22march2011, at night, i was keeping farting....and was damn smelly, hahaha...
and i was wondering why i'm keeping farting and i felt my intestine like squirmed but i can't bang sai at all !!
Finally, i found out the reason jor~
that is because i had ate too much of the SunSweet Putted Prunes that cause me to keep farting.
I went to google it, and the research showed that the prunes are contain a lot fibre, instanly, ooooooooooooooooo, no wonder la, hahahahhahaha.
so for those who want to try the feeling of keeping farting, can try out for this xD

Happy

Hey guy, damn a long time didn't update my blog.
Haha, recently i was enjoy my life extremely.
Although i got lots of assignment to rush for it, is almost become a half zombie face,
but guess what this is what call college life.
Learned a lot new thing, tried something new, get closer with college friend...and so on.
Life is just moving on, day by day, night by night.
I am very happy and appreciate everything all around me.

Thx god, love you~ muakss =D

真的吗?原来!

眼睛看到的不一定是全部
我们以为的不一定是事实。

偶尔在街上，我们看到人们携带LV, Gucci等等名牌货
在车来车往的马路上，我们不难见到很多高档宾士穿梭而过
哇....我们会直接联想到：有钱人!!!

周围朋友手上 Iphone, Blackberry, Galaxy, Ipad等
高等餐厅，Shopping, 无止境零用钱，
哇...有钱人!!!

不同人给与不同的反应
我们应该羡慕？
我们应该妒忌？
我们应该眼红？
我们应该避开？
我们应该自卑？
我们应该若无其事？
我们应该激励自己？
人类有着7情6欲，有形容不完的情感。

其实某些事实的真相是
你看我好；我看你好。

外表风光亮丽其实只是为了装饰面子而已，
其实里面不如外表一样的好，苦撑着谁知道！
但也不可否认也有的是真材实料。

我看着环绕着我的这一切，
心里想着将来以后我要成为真正的有钱人；拥有真正的享受。
不会让你们忽视我的存在 =]

My poor english level

I'm just started my new sem fews day ago and
I'm only taking 3 subject in this sem.
A brand new sem for me, which also means I have to do much more better than sem 1.

One of the subject in this sem that i have to study is Communication English. During sem 1, we were taught for the basic, likes grammar, past tense, present tense and etc...is kinda easy for me to handle.
Well, this sem is big different with previous sem.
we are not longer to learn those basic anymore, we read story, poem and even we have to write it. Sounds good and interesting way to learn english.
But I have a problem.
My english level is too low T_T
In my class, got a student is younger than me but her english is super duper pro !!!
I not even understand what she talking about and i was thinking maybe her english is better than lecturer because i can understand what lecturer talking but not she ==
Beside that, a short story that gave by lecture require us to read through it and what happen is I have so many many a lot vocabury don't understand and blur @@
since that, i know i really have to force myself 996 to improve my english jor ><

And Mr.Gerrad( right spelling ?) mention that, the main language for communicate is english especially we have to work at advertising industry, if you don't know how to express your opinion or anything through english then everything gone. He try very hard to tell all the way that can improve our english, magazine, newspaper,radio,news ,he list out. At the moment, I get know that english is one of the priority in our life.
Honestly, sometime i was quiet because i'm not enough confident to talk in english lolx

Anyway, I like the subject i'm learning now, trying to explore more on that. Of course one of my 2011 goal is improve my english.


*Smile with ur face, smile with ur minds, and even smile with your liver.

p/s: poor english xD

20之意义年

又踏入新的一年了，向2010说bye bye
时间飞逝遛过，谁也没能把它抓住，唯一的是记忆.

很难接受我已经迈入了20的年头了，感觉自己还没适应
回想中学时期的生活就好像几个月前的事情而已
闭上眼睛，睁开眼睛
天空还是碧蓝如常，周围的事物还是一样
唯有日历上的0变成1了~
2010已经消失了，没有了，不见了...

身体，眼睛，鼻子，嘴巴，头发都是属于20岁的了~
原来我长大了，从女孩变女生了；
一个需要真正看待自己未来的女生.

我要我的20.意义
在过去的一年里很多发生改变了我，
在这一年里我要把改变了的我变得不一样.
在无法预算的未来，我充满着憧憬，期待着不一样的世界.

往上爬的人生 =]

Thanks god everything you give me, Appreciate.